We all experience things in our youth that shape us and change us. Some change us for the better, and some leave deep wounds on our soul. There is value in revisiting our past to examine those trying times. Liz Jones explores hurts she experienced at sixteen. It affected her, but she didn’t let it scar her. God heals brokenness. This is a letter to her sixteen-year-old self.
Someone sees you. Someone knows you. Someone is here for you. You feel alone like you are moving about in a shell—going to school, doing homework, playing sports. I know that deep down, you feel like no one really knows you.
You have experienced a shift this year. You are self-conscious. You feel sad a lot and you feel alone. I know it is very confusing so you just assume it is all your fault. Whatever is wrong, you blame yourself. But that is a lie. Your grieving and sadness are part of your sensitivity to the world around you and it is okay.
There is someone who knows you and sees every single part of you and cherishes you! Girl, you are SO LOVED! There is someone who longs for you, someone who sees you as a beautiful young woman. God knows you, dear heart. He created you and there is nothing in you that is a mistake.
You will make mistakes. You will sin. You will choose poorly. But you are not a mistake.
I know your emotions feel out of control. I know you are constantly wondering if you are loved and how can you get them to love you more. Stop. You are already loved to the maximum, to the extreme, to the utmost because Jesus died on the cross for your sins.
I want you to look at your Mom and Dad. They are not perfect people. They make mistakes and are broken, too. Don’t base your worth on them. They love you—you know that. But they have some things that God is working on in them as well. Sometimes you won’t understand, but just know that they are on a journey just like you. I know you are worried about them. You see their struggles. But remember, it’s not up to you to fix anything. God has got this, Liz. Breathe in and out and let God hold you and take control.
Lean in close because I have something really important to tell you: there will be a day when all of you will be healed and whole. You will all come to a place of knowing Jesus, accepting Jesus, and living for Him. It will take time, so hold on tight. God is all around you, working and moving. In His perfect time, you will see. He will heal all the broken places and your family will be whole. Not perfect, but in Christ, REDEEMED.
God has amazing plans for you, Liz. You will continue to grow and become a mighty woman of God. You will always be a fighter and an overcomer; God made you that way. You will help others do the same in ministry, in friendships, in your job. God has given you a gift—the ability to see strengths in others and God will use you to build others up. This will be a big part of your purpose.
So, don’t give up. Don’t give in. You are loved. You are known and you have a purpose. Stick close to God and keep your eyes on Jesus. Everything is going to be okay.
Liz Jones is a 37-year-old mom of two boys who have the energy of about five boys. They keep her in stitches and on her knees. She has been married for 13 years to her amazing better half, who is her polar opposite and her rock. Some of her other loves are coffee, time with girlfriends, painting her nails, movies, SILENCE, being outside and cheering her husband and sons on in sports. Liz works full-time outside of the home as a Vocational Evaluator where she helps people with disabilities find their vocational purpose. She blogs about that struggle/journey/tension/